Thursday, January 26, 2012

Things I wanted to tell you..

23 Jan:
I wanted to tell you how bad I felt the whole day because I was thinking about where we are going in this, I wanted to tell you that I meant to ask you to wait for me when I wasn’t planning to see you just to show you how much it hurts to wait for something and it doesn’t happen.. just to show you how it feels when someone promises you something and they don’t do it.. I wanted to tell you that when I got back home I had a fight with mom over you.. I wanted to tell you that I was so angry at you that I didn’t wanna talk to you.. I wanted to tell you this is the main reason why I am not talking to you.. I wanted to tell you that I cried that night till I fell asleep..

24 Jan:
I wanted to tell you that I missed you when I woke up in the morning.. that I went to work thinking of you.. that although I was so busy I couldn’t take you out of my mind..

25 Jan:
I wanted to talk to you.. I wanted to tell you about my day.. I wanted to tell you how I was so angry at a girl with me at work.. how her message got my nerve.. I wanted to complain about her.. I wanted to tell you how I am learning new stuff at work.. how I am excited, nervous and scared at the same time.. I wanted to tell you that I am having a lot of work lately.. I wanted your support.. I wanted to tell you how chocho was following me the whole day.. how he wanted me to cuddle him.. how I was kissing him.. how happy I was about this..I wanted to tell you how I miss you.. I wanted to tell you how I need your kisses.. I wanted to tell you how I couldn’t sleep last night.. I wanted to tell you how I felt you hugging me when I was trying to sleep..

26 Jan:
I woke up in the morning missing you.. looking at my mobile.. it was 6.30 am.. it was the time you wake up.. it was the time I wake you up.. it was the time I hear your voice.. it was the time we kiss a morning kiss.. I wanted to tell you how I went to work late.. I wanted to tell you what I did today.. I wanted to tell you how I felt when I saw your message saying “I miss you”.. I wanted to tell you how I smiled yet how I was so upset.. I wanna tell you how I am having tears in my eyes while I am at work.. I wanna tell you how I miss you so much.. I wanna tell you how I cant concentrate on work because you are running on my mind all the day.. I wanted.. & you wanted.. perhaps we wanted different things…

6 comments:

zainab said...

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Butterfly Chick said...

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Leilana said...

7aram wallaaaa :(

I'm not sure what the story is but be strong and take this time to focus on yourself and doing things you love to do. inshallah if it's meant to be, he'll come around, if not then it only means that you're getting an upgrade! ;)

Butterfly Chick said...

Leilana..
that wat I was plannin to do.. focus on me and only me.. think of myself and what I like and what to do..
thanks for ur sweet words.. I really hope that this meant to be..

amalikrunner said...

Rn't we just tired of love dramas now? lol I think it's time to feed and put energy into more result producing activities, hell if love comes welcome it otherwise we can stop crying :P

Butterfly Chick said...

Malik..
lol yeah too much drama lately? I guess I shud stop cuz I am being boring :P !
I am pulling myself up and I am truely fine now!