I tried to write.. I tried to express myself.. I tried to express my anger.. But I couldnt let it go.. I just cant talk about this.. Its too big.. Too big for me to think about.. Too big for me to believe.. Too big for me to imagine..!
I cant believe that you actually doing this..! I cant believe that people are so stupid! I cant believe that people run from their problems this way! Screw it..
What friends for? Share it.. Talk about it.. Cry.. Shout.. But dont do this..! Not this! You are walking in a wrong path.. So wrong! STOP.. Please.. Wake up and see where you are going! Wake up!
Its so sad.. So sad that I wanna talk about it but I cant.. So sad to see your friend drowning and you do nothing about it.. So sad that I wish I could help.. So sad that I still cant think about it because it hurts.. So sad that I dunno what to do!
What friends for? Shouldnt I talk to you? But how.. How..!!
What friends for? What friends for if they cant be there for each others! Screw those people.. Screw them.. No one is perfect.. We all done mistakes.. But it doesnt mean going further.. It doesnt mean doing more.. It doesnt mean we cant stop! It doesnt mean we are bad persons! It doesnt mean we have to stay bad to the rest of our life!
I hate how I am feeling.. I hate how pissed I am.. I hate how I dunno what I am writing.. I just wanna write and write.. I wanna let this out.. I wanna shout at you.. I wanna slap you.. I wanna slap her and blame her! I wanna hug you so tight and promise you things are going to be right.. I love you..
Thank you God for everything.. Thank you God for being always there for us.. Thank you God for forgiving us.. Please God.. Help her.. Help her to go through this.. Help her to stand on her feet again.. Help her to be stronger..
I believe.. That tomorrow is a better day.. I believe that the better days yet to come..