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They say some words are better left unspoken.. but sometimes, you just want to say whatever inside your chest and let it go.. & I think this is how you felt when you wanted to let go those words.. but.. I dunno whether I really deserved all the words you have said.. it really hurt me.. I read it over and over again and it hurt me so much that it made me cry… I didn’t know that I am a bad person.. this bad… I didn’t know that I have hurt those people who I really cared for and adored… I am hurt and I think this is what you wanted to make me feel… but wishing for my death? Isn’t it too much? Maybe I didn’t imagine that someone would wish me this… Maybe I didnt imagine that YOU would wish me this... its.. it’s a bit cruel.. & honestly its painful.. so painful…

I am sorry for everything... I am out of words and I dont know what to say... I am just wondering if there is anyone out there who is feeling the same about me... who is wishing the same... & to be honest... I am a bit scared... I mean, I mean who would be relaxed if he heard that someone is wishing him an awful life...! & you cant really do anything to change that person's mind...

I love writing since it makes me feel better... I am a bit better even though tears are still rolling in my eyes... I swear my intention was innocent when I asked about you, I didnt want anything or didnt mean anything and didnt mean to bring the past back to you... I was worried about a person I cared for one day... but I learned my lesson.. Leave the past for the past and never bring it back to the present/future... it might hurt you.....

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