.....

They say some words are better left unspoken.. but sometimes, you just want to say whatever inside your chest and let it go.. & I think this is how you felt when you wanted to let go those words.. but.. I dunno whether I really deserved all the words you have said.. it really hurt me.. I read it over and over again and it hurt me so much that it made me cry… I didn’t know that I am a bad person.. this bad… I didn’t know that I have hurt those people who I really cared for and adored… I am hurt and I think this is what you wanted to make me feel… but wishing for my death? Isn’t it too much? Maybe I didn’t imagine that someone would wish me this… Maybe I didnt imagine that YOU would wish me this... its.. it’s a bit cruel.. & honestly its painful.. so painful…

I am sorry for everything... I am out of words and I dont know what to say... I am just wondering if there is anyone out there who is feeling the same about me... who is wishing the same... & to be honest... I am a bit scared... I mean, I mean who would be relaxed if he heard that someone is wishing him an awful life...! & you cant really do anything to change that person's mind...

I love writing since it makes me feel better... I am a bit better even though tears are still rolling in my eyes... I swear my intention was innocent when I asked about you, I didnt want anything or didnt mean anything and didnt mean to bring the past back to you... I was worried about a person I cared for one day... but I learned my lesson.. Leave the past for the past and never bring it back to the present/future... it might hurt you.....

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Gone Girl vs The Girl on The Train

I recently finished reading "The Girl on the Train - by Paula Hawkins" .. It somehow reminded me of "Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn" .. Both books are nice and I can't tell which one I like better.. Well maybe I prefer Gone Girl.. If you like thriller, mystery books I would highly recommend to read these books.. It is far away from love stories and random books..

Here is a brief about each book...

 

 

On a warm summer morning in North Carthage, Missouri, it is Nick and Amy Dunne's fifth wedding anniversary. Presents are being wrapped and reservations are being made when Nick's clever and beautiful wife disappears from their rented McMansion on the Mississippi River. Husband-of-the-Year Nick isn't doing himself any favors with cringe-worthy daydreams about the slope and shape of his wife's head, but passages from Amy's diary reveal the alpha-girl perfectionist could have put anyone dangerously on edge. Under mounting pressure from the police and the media--as well as Amy's fiercely doting parents--the town golden boy parades an endless series of lies, deceits, and inappropriate behavior. Nick is oddly evasive, and he's definitely bitter--but is he really a killer?

As the cops close in, every couple in town is soon wondering how well they know the one that they love. With his twin sister, Margo, at his side, Nick stands by his innocence. Trouble is, if Nick didn't do it, where is that beautiful wife? And what was in that silvery gift box hidden in the back of her bedroom closet?

 

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Rachel takes the same commuter train every morning. Every day she rattles down the track, flashes past a stretch of cozy suburban homes, and stops at the signal that allows her to daily watch the same couple breakfasting on their deck. She’s even started to feel like she knows them. “Jess and Jason,” she calls them. Their life—as she sees it—is perfect. Not unlike the life she recently lost.

And then she sees something shocking. It’s only a minute until the train moves on, but it’s enough. Now everything’s changed. Unable to keep it to herself, Rachel offers what she knows to the police, and becomes inextricably entwined in what happens next, as well as in the lives of everyone involved. Has she done more harm than good?

 

 

 

Knock! Knock! Is there anybody in here...?!

I can't believe it has been 3 years since I have last posted! Well.. almost 3 years !

I forgot my password.. I even forgot how to add a new post lol I guess I am just getting old!!

Hmm.. so anyone is here?! Any of my old readers?! New ones?!

I dunno why I came back here..  I missed this place.. It was like a home to me.. I enjoyed writing whatever I feel and whatever I want to say here.. without someone to judge!..  A lot of things changed in my life.. Other than getting married I have a son now.. 1 year old..

I have been thinking a lot lately.. About a lot of people who crossed my life.. I used to believe that if you think of someone they might be thinking of you at the same time.. Do you believe in that?

If anyone is here reading that.. Let me know your answers.. I would love to know if there is someone out there who is thinking the same!

Have a great month!

Hmmm!!

There is something wrong with me, with the blogs, bloggers, or nah with me?!

I love posting, I love writing, I love reading,! but lately been so busy to do all of this! lately I have nothing to post or write about!

Well,, I just got married and I guess I have been busy with marriage life! busy with work.. not having time to sit online and post or think of something to post..!

I have seen many bahraini blogs rising! so happy for that..! and seen some old bloggers returning back which also made me smile :) !

I never disappeared.. not completely I mean! I go and come, go and come..! I guess I will be posting recipes these days! staying at home made me cook! hahaha I am so proud of myself! I cooked rice today! for the first time on my life! I COOKED! Yes it is HUGE for me :P !! I never cooked! well you learn all the things when you get married :P ! Don't believe them when they say you have to learn from now naaah I never cooked with mom lol !

hmmm.. It is late.. sometimes I wonder, do people write on there blogs for other people to read or for them to just write and let go?! In my case.. I write to write! I know I always jump from one subject to another! but hey this is me :P I just write to write!

& yeah.. I removed the chity chat from my blog.. Sorry to all who were chatting with me there.. I will miss u! but the box was not fitting into the blog's column and it looked really bad so I had to remove it! if I found a better chat box I will try to add it to my blog.. I hope this doesnt stop you from visiting my blog :)

Good night all.. & Happy National Day Bahrain

Unspoken words

There are just certain things in life that are better off unknown. things you wish you never asked, never saw, never heard or never even felt.

Now I have to be the strongest here.. The one who assure them that things are gonna be right.. But are things gonna be right?! We have been there.. Gone through this.. Fixed this.. But how many times we will fix it until its really fixed!!

Trust? Trust?! What is trust? How can you trust someone so blindly?! Why! Why would you betray this trust! What do you need more? What do you want more?! I cant understand why someone would do this! It is so painful! So pain inside.. I dont know how to deal with this..! All my life I was scared of betrayal and life surprised me with many ways of betrayals..!! I've seen it from everyone! Everyone I truly loved! Am I scared? Yes I am.. So scared of what life is bringing for me next! Things are falling apart yet I am trying to hold on.. Things are disappearing yet I am trying to clearly see.. I thank God for everything, yet I ask why this happened.. Why to us.. What went wrong.. What needs to be fixed.. Will things be back to normal? Will we forgive and forget AGAIN? Isn't it hard to continue forgiving people on the same mistakes they make?! Will Karma hit me on the face even when I had nothing to do with this!?

I pray silently.. I pray.. I pray to wake up from this horrible dream.. I pray to wake up again.. I pray .. But I am not even sure what to pray for.....!!

Truth or Dare

I was never a big fan of this game.. I always get embarrased when I play it! Perhaps because I am a shy person so I don't feel comfortable to be asked some private questions! I dunno why people ask these kind of questions! Such a stupid ones and the purpose is just to know more about your private life! It sucks!

Okay let's play? I wanna know more about you, your husband/wife, boyfriend/girlfriend and the questions go into a very deep details! I sometimes also wonder how could people answer to these questions! Why would you answer? Why would anyone say the truth? Or are they saying the truth?

** Have you ever tried any drugs?
** Hmmm.. Silence << which would let you think that this person did try drugs.. Then a smile.. Then a NOOOOOO of course NOT!

Usually when someone asks me a private question I go red! I dunno what to answer and I stay silent.. I don't play this game I get forced to play it.. YEAH LET'S PLAY! LET US ROLL THE BOTTLE .. BOOM BUTTERFLY YOU ARE THE FIRST TO BE ASKED! ....!!

I also wonder why its easier to answer questions rather than accepting the dare! Perhaps because when people answer they can lie, but there is nothing to lie about in daring!

I suck at answering questions & I suck at even asking questions.. I thought this game is fun, but since I have been there I knew that people only play it to get into each others privacy.. Or perhaps it is how people do it here..

I am off to bed.. I have a bad headache today.. I have been thinking a lot on shutting this blog of.. I might be doing it soon.. Perhaps yes and perhaps not.. Will see how it goes.. Good night all and have a great weekend..

just for me to stay awake!

Oh God.. I am soooooooooo soooooooooo soooooooooooooo 7adi very much sleeeeppppppyyyyyy!
I cant work, kelma ashte'3el 3yooni t'3ame'9! seriously I am falling asleep.. gabel cham yoom.. chee I was working o ada5el numbers.. mara wa7da chaaan.. 5oshh .. '36aat 3aini.. LOL min 9ijii I slept for 1 min :P rasi kan be6eg fel desk so thats why ge7a9t LOL.. esta'3fer allah .. I love ramadan.. I do.. bas dawami wayed mut3eb in ramadan.. I have to wake up at 6 am cuz dwami at 7.. o I try to sleep early but I also wanna spend some time with my family at night.. I usually sleep at 12 these days so next day adawem metkasra.. 5wati now ejazat el 9aif 3endhum so they all stay up to 2 am yets7roon weya ba3ath.. ela ana 7ta su7oor matsa7ar :(!! ga3da afaker a5eth ejaza a5er yoom fe hal sboo3 shraykum?! abee arta7 shway + thyabi el 3eed la7een ma5l9thum! bas agool 7ram el wa7ed ya5eth ejaza fe ramdan! ya3ni its only 6 hours laish a5aser ejazati.. Hmm let me c cham yoom 3endi.. ee walla agdar a5eth! madriii hmmm..
b3d shenoo.. I only do this for me not to sleep.. zain shway 9a79a7t! shakli rada b3d 3gb shway to talk bas 3shan I dun feel asleep!

Aloha

Hello All.. I missed you.. Missed blogging world.. << adri wayed gelt hal 7achi :P

 

First.. Embarak 3laikum el shahar..

 

Second.. Well.. Hmmm.. I am a lazy lazy lazy lazy lady! Yes I am and I sometimes hate it!

 

How are you all?! How's Ramadan going on with you? For me esta'3fer allah all what I do is watching tv and sleep.. Okay I do read qur2an but I know eni emga9ra and I can read or do more...

 

I am so not an out going person so I usually spend time at home.. I wish I was an out going girl! lol..

So feeni sowalef :P min zeman masoolaft! shet6al3oon fe ramdan shetab3oon? sheno 3ajebkum o sheno mo 3ajebkum?! ana matam shay machoofa :P min 2 PM emjabla MBC Drama lee 5 PM!

 

Hmmm.. What elseee... I am seriously thinking of creating a new blog called lazy something :P LOL.. well I am trying with my fiance so hard to create one with me, & since we both are lazy I dunno when this blog will be born :P

 

I love ramadan.. I love home.. I love sleeping.. I love talking.. Adri wala shay min ely geltah foog la 3elaqa eb ba3ath but I really missed talking here! I missed talking about anything & everything! I am currently at work doing nothing just counting down the hours to go home :P!

Take care all o 3eedkum embarak moqadman in case e5tefait b3d :P

New Blog.. Yes or No?!

I am thinking of creating a new blog! I don't know why! I just feel like I need a change!

Shall I go for it or shall I keep this blog?!

08.Jun.12

 He stole my heart, that's why I had to steal his last name...

Your opinion VS your friend's Opinion!!

""I am not mad, I am hurt. There is a difference.""

Hello all,, how have you been? Missed you!

Thanks for those who keeps visiting my blog and I am sorry for being away.. I miss blogging but I was really busy.. I got promoted at work thanks to God =) ! and more nice news are coming soon =D !!

So let's have a chitty chat!

A quick question for you!

Let's say that you bought something for a special party and you so loved it and found it so amazing on you! & the party is in few days! and you are so excited!! You showed it to your family and they all said it looks gorgeous on you!!

So finally you decided to show your friend what you bought – because this is what we girls do before any party - ! andddddd here is the big BOMB! she tells you right straight on the face "WHAT THE HELL DID YOU BUY AND WHY THE HELL DID YOU BUY THAT?" LOL!!

Now tell me how your reaction will be? What will you say? What will you do? & do you honestly think that what your friend did/said was right?

Love...

I can't keep myself from smiling everytime I read this poetry.. I love you baby so much..

Darling…

It still seems like magic every time I remember how love softly touched our hearts, bringing 'em together.

Ever since I met you, you've opened my heart to new joys, touched it with your loving way, and now I can't imagine my life without the beauty of your love!

My world was a misty blue before I met you and saw the love in your eyes!
Now it is a rosy pink, with you by my side, it seems like a dream…

Honey, The warmth of your magical touch, your sweet smile, your amazing kisses, and the love in your eyes, your hugs, and your caring ways make me feel so special.

Sweetheart, The pearly treasures of the sea, the lights that spatter heaven above, more precious than these wonders are my heart-of-hearts filled with your love.

Our love's like the wind strong and growing, our love's like the river forever flowing, our love's like the sun that shines so bright, our love's like the moon with it's gentle light, our love is rare, our love is true, a bond that's grown between me and you. And
I believe our love is forever, neither time nor distance can take you away from me!

Whenever I see you, I'm as happy as can be, for you bring a smile upon my face' and a feeling of joy within my heart; you remind me that I'm special, and to love you is the most beautiful thing I could do

Love is the sweetest emotion that springs in my heart, love is like that tender kiss you gave me at the start, love is to see that special smile appear on your face, love is like a bouquet with its trimmings & lace, love is like sunshine, strong & true, love is all that I feel so deeply for you.

I love you so deeply, I love you so much; I love the sound of your voice, and the way that we touch. I love your warm smile, and your kind, I love you today as I have from the start, and I'll love you forever... with all my heart.

Dear, My love's like a red rose, each of the petals has your name written on it.
And I am a little bit more in love with you, each morning when I wake up, every time you call my name, when you come and hold my hand, and every moment, everyday!

I love thee - I love thee! 'this all that I can say; It is my vision in the night, my dreaming in the day; The very echo of my heart, the blessing when I pray:
I love thee - I love thee! Is all that I can say.

I love you today, tomorrow, and forever :)
xoxoxo

Bahrain's Romeo!

شاب بحريني يتسلق أعلى برج للاتصالات ويطالب بحضور محبوبته ووالدها للموافقة على زواجه

تسلق شاب بحريني يبلغ من العمر 19 سنة أحد أبراج الاتصالات بمنطقة مدينة حمد مساء أمس مهددا بعدم النزول من أعلى البرج إلا بعد حضور البنت التي ينوي الزواج منها برفقة والدها والموافقة على زواجه منها. 

و قد فوجئ الأهالي بإقدام الشاب على هذا التصرف الذي لا يشاهد إلا في الأفلام الرومانسية، وقال شهود عيان بأن الشاب كان يصرخ بأعلى صوته مطالبا بحضور محبوبته مع والدها إلى الموقع والموافقة على زواجه.

وحضر رجال الشرطة إلى الموقع على الفور، وبعدها حضر أيضا والد الفتاة إلى أملا في إقناع الشاب بالنزول إلا أنه طالب بحضور الفتاة أيضا و موافقتها على الزواج منه كشرط للنزول من أعلى البرج.

و احتشد عدد كبير من الأهالي و المارة حول البرج، حيث استمر الوضع لقرابة الساعتين إلى حين صعود رجال الشرطة الى البرج وانزال الشاب العاشق دون ان تحضر الحبيبة ودون أن يتحقق حلمه بالزواج.

المصدر: http://alayam.com/newsdetails.aspx?id=68508

المهمة الحلقة 1

I liked this show very much.. Interesting and worth watching :)..

  فكرة البرنامج تعتمد على إقامة برنامج تدريبي شبابي تلفزيوني يتم فيه اختيار مجموعة من الشباب المتخرجين أو المقبلين على التخرج والباحثين عن العمل في مختلف المجالات حسب تخصصاتهم، يقام بتدريبهم وتهيئتهم لسوق العمل من خلال ورش عمل يقدمها متخصصون، من بعدها يقام بتوفير فرص عمل لهم في مختلف الشركات والمؤسسات، وهنا يبدأ التحدي الحقيقي بين المشاركين في كيفية إثبات القدرات للحصول على الوظيفة وكل ذلك يتم تصويره كبرنامج تلفزيوني واقعي.

يا معيريس الحلقة 4 و 5

Dubai Here I Come!

Heeeeeeyyyy alll :D

I am sooo excited for the weekend! Finally my dad is treating me like a grown up and he is allowing me to travel with my friends :D So this weekend I will be off to DUBAI! I am so extremely happy about it.. I need your recommendation in where to go? I know there are a lot of stuff to do and to go in Dubai! But I am just spending 3 days there “the weekend only” so I wanna know where are the best places to go in these 3 days! Places for activities, fun, restaurant! Anything comes in your mind! I don’t wanna miss something there I wanna enjoy the whole weekend!

 Appreciating your help :D

PS. I heard that there are real penguins in SKI Dubai where you can touch them and take photos with them! Is that true?

وين الضحك

So loved this song.. So touching..

el5a6aba!

Good morning all..

As you know I just turned 26 and I am still single and since people here think that girls cant live without marriage everyone around me starting to ask me when I am getting married! What surprised me is one of my friends once sent me a msg with a number of "5a6aba" [a stranger who looks for the right match for you]! First I laughed thinking that she is joking, then I realized how serious she was! She told me call her tell her what you want in a guy and send her your picture!

Now if you were on my shoe, would you accept doing this? Would you send your picture to some stranger and ask her to find your soulmate? For guys, would you marry someone this way? Would you also give your picture and meet someone this way?

Please share your thoughts :)

Mai a Make-up addict

I am one of the girls who loves to put make up, I love buying make up and I love practicing it on my face. Unfortunately I don’t see myself good at it! I lately heard about Mai. I heard that she is giving a basic classes where she covers almost everything step by step! I really found that interesting and I decided to join her class!

You wont believe me how well organized her class was! Well let me start from the beginning!

When I heard about her – from my cousins - I started following her on twitter, and I found a lot of people commenting about her class, so I contacted her to get more details. She is such a sweetheart girl! She was replying on every single message and she was very helpful even before the class!

So on the class date I was so excited! I went inside the class and got amazed of how everything was on order and everything was so organized! I forgot to take pictures that day but I will show you the pictures she posted in her blog

Here what the class covers:

I benefited a lot from the class, I loved attending it and I enjoyed it to the max! I am pretty sure you will find it useful! She teaches almost everything in these three and a half hours! And she will tell you which product is good to use and stuff! She is such a lovely girl that she actually welcome any question and she answers back nicely!

I highly recommend you to join her class! She is planning to make an advance class for the eye shadows and she is taking the girls from the basic classes! So join her today before its too late!

& if you are not from Bahrain, why not visit us and try to attend one of her classes! I assure you its worth it!

To know more about her makeup class please visit: http://themakeupmanual.com/2012/02/22/my-makeup-class-full-details/

To know more about Mai:

“”I’m Mai and I’m a Make-up addict.

The obsession with make-up started out a few years ago & I decided to actually explore everything about it! I felt the urge to educate the women who use make-up but have no clue on how to apply it: shes uses a wrong brush with this or applies this before that or uses a dark color with this.. Etc. What made me start was when friends kept asking me: what’s that eyeshadow? How do you even out your skin after foundation? How to use the eyeliner? How to How to How to…. So i gathered them and created a MAKE-UP 101 session & taught them all the basics. Then I realized that many other girls need to know about this. Guiding them through this will enhance their make-up skills & make them feel pretty.””

http://themakeupmanual.com/about/

You can visit her on her website:

http://themakeupmanual.com

twitter @TheMakeupManual

I Support Bahrainis



You & restaurant with bars!

Since I live in Bahrain, we have a lot of restaurants which contains bars inside.. to be honest I hate this thing here in Bahrain, I think they really should close all the bars in the restaurants and at least keep them inside the hotels only – although I wish we live in a country with no alcohol access –

So my question today, would you go to a restaurant with a bar inside? If you saw someone entering such places what would you think of them? What will be the first impression you would take?

To be more specific, if you saw a girl entering these restaurants would you think that she drinks?

Share your thoughts =)